Work, Career or ...

Lost? confuse? upset? Mix feeling?

This week started with a scolding from my boss, 20+mins of scolding.... Well, do you think we care? hahahaha... we just 'bo song'...

Me already very busy with my work, now got to take care of my staff work, don even have the time to do my own backlog... Any1 of them notice anot??? I'm doing what they did not fulfill in the 1st place and not something that i was task to do... pls help me to push the temp staff to work lah since i manage to get 4 for them... Feeling lost, cos i help them, they dont appreciate, if i don help them, they will complaint that i'm not helping them.

They complaint they are tired after 1 week of working late... I am also very tired.... I have been working late daily & working many saturday for months...

Am i really that lousy as a senior? My team boycott me for lunch... what have i done wrong? Confuse....

The whole team give me attitude... If they choose not to work with me, they can always ask for transfer... they din realise that nobody is indispensible including me... If their attitude toward their work dont change nobody can help them...

Have the kind of urge to resign, cos my team is not cooperative & my boss scold me like a dog... almost cry out yesterday when he scolded me infront of my staff... He ask for report via SMS and i send him an email with the full detail but he din check his email, is it my fault...

Work is just not on my side... feeling lousy...

My life is just work & nothing else... so sad... & my work is not doing well which means i have nothing else to rely on, if my career is off... I feel very lousy...

What have i done right from the beginning till now, other den completed my degree...

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Feeling very low today...

Did not start my day rite, with all the scolding from my boss... Controllable or uncontrollable... Start to double my own ability, am i suitable for the job???

Failure is the part & puzzle of life... is through failure we learn & grow (the TV is showing now)

Feeling better now...