Appraisal

This year is the worst appraisal session that i have gone thru since i join in 2004.

Has my performance gone down or my boss expectation is too high? Haizzzz....

Very stress with my appraisal... How come my boss keep on asking me why i grade myself this or why i grade myself that for all the points, da da da... i must give a reason why i grade myself the rating... What is this man??? i tot my boss suppose to give his view, den we will discuss what is not met...

The rate that is done... i will be dying soon....

Injure my toe

Wah liew, very sway... Standing in a bus also injure my toe.... so painful... it was bleeding & the feet is swollen.... cant reallly walk properly....

New Love???

Was having family dinner last nite to celebrate my dad birthday... he is 63 on Monday (10th December)....

My brother Phillip, was telling me that his GOD have a vision for him that i will be getting a boyfriend if i'm my feminine and in order to maintain the relationship i need to be humble.... Well, he added by saying that i look feminine after i perm my hair, as for the rest i have control myself....

How do i control myself to be humble, cos in the 1st place i don find myself arrogant... So is it fated that i will be alone for my whole life??? Actually been alone is not such a bad idea after all, cos i have been alone for the past 6 yrs... except that i will felt lonely when christmas is near by...

I know i have lost something important in christmas, but i cant rem what, some1 ever told me tat if i cant rem den it is not important after all.... but i will feel kind of missing something during this seasons.

Time to let GO?

Just reach home after a day full of activities; it started at 10.30am in the morning, went to temple, shopping and go KTV with Adeline, and meet up with Conrad and Yasmin for dinner and pool session.

Everything went on fine, only got to realise that i have lost my sentimental hairclip after i reach home. I have been using the the clip for 8 yrs, finally is time to say goodbye... feeling kind of lost and heartpain, but nothing much i can do... Maybe it is time for me to let go be prepare for the new love...

P.S. Hairclip is from Daven abt this timing 8 yrs ago... He spent few hours just to look for this hairclip... and i love it very much...

HELP!!!!

Something is not rite with me but i cant tell what!!! Frustrate.... It all started since yesterday morning, knowin that i'm shortage of time for my studies, cant help just spent hours and hours of my time watching DCD, & the stupid DVD keep on jam.... I know i'm running away from something...

Why cant my bros arrange a gathering on their own when i told them that i will be free after 3rd of Dec??? Must keep on calling me, or have i always be the 1 doing the arrangement, why cant they just leave me out with my life...

Finally decide to have a early rest so that i will be fully charge today.... For God Sakes, what the hell is my mom trying to to do in the middle of the nite adjusting my curtain, & makes lot of noise to wake me up.... Already have such a bad day & cant even have a good rest... now what!!!! cant sleep & having very bad margraine & WORST cant study.... Why cant she just leave me alone with my room, everything she come back from my bro place, she will give me problems, either on the TV even tho she knows that i'm trying to study for my paper, or walk into my room putting some clothes or adjusting my curtain when i'm asleep, this is not the 1st time she is doing all this things... told her so many time not to enter my room while i'm asleep... why cant she just let me rest peacefully...

Feeling very stress up, having very bad stiff shoulder.... feel like crying but i cant, feel like i might explode... wanted to talk to someone but who is available at the middle of the nite.... Can some1 save me from all this... why do i have to go thru all this....

What happen to me??? Something seems to be eating me up slowly... I know it, but WHAT!!!! Am sure is definite not due to stress on study.... can some1 help me...

Finally!!!

Yeah!!! Finally, received all my result... 2A 1C 1D

Have to put in more effort for my current module for this round.

Jia You!!!

Migraine!!!

Was having migraine since Tuesday.... After 4 days of non-stop stress over my results, i finally receive 3 out of 4... but my migraine is still with me... Why the school want to release the result in batch??? So stress...

SingPost is not efficient....

Today, receive news from my colleague that he had received his result, out of curiousity, i msg my fren from the same intake but diff major, she has received hers as well.... So i told my classmate, all of us rush home after class to check out result...

After 1hr+ of worries, finally got myself home, open the letterbox, but there is no letter...
Oh Shit!!!! Already worried like mad, now still no letter, i have to hold on to this kind of feeling for the next 24 hours, is unbearable...

My classmate called & said that she score 15 marks for MEB.... WHAT???? 15 marks???? how can that be??? & 2 of our results are not release, as UOB is holding back... Holding back??? Does it mean good or bad!!!! Make me more worried, having mirgaine when I'm writing all this, shoulder, neck & whole body pain....

How to survive for the next 24 hours???

Feeling very tired

I think my patience is up to the limit... Why do i have to stay up till 8pm+ daily, whereas my coll by just saying that she cant cope & i have to handle her work... i know that i have to give her chance, but at the rate it is going, it will kill me 1st...

I'm handling 2 project currently, tho my new project is still coming slow, but how can i rem so many things, have to remind her to do all her work, give her more work, she will tell me that she cant cope have to take panadol... I also cant cope...

What is my purpose of transfering dept, so tat i wont be so busy, but now i work later den when i was in sales... $$$ also earn lesser...

Why do I miss you so badly suddenly?

Try to take a nap while waiting for my lesson to start. You just came into my mind; all the happy moments & when our relationship come to an end; tear just flow down...

Am I feeling very lonely in a noisy classroom or I really miss you so badly.... Don know how have you been for the past yrs, I doubt we will even talk if we met on the street...

Just feel very empty & lonely suddenly...