Life is fragile

When to hospital yesterday to visit my staff... i almost cry out ...

Suddenly i feel very hot & not able to breathe properly & start to feel giddy & everything is spinning... feel like vomitting & hot...

I din know my heart is so weak...

Is it bcos i'm not well or see his skinny body that makes me scare...

Have the feeling of stop breathing for the 2nd time this week....

Work, Work & Work

my life is nothing except for work...

my staff have been complaining for the past few months...

do they know i have my frustration as well... & i cant complain to any1...

do they know that i have been covering lots of her work...

do they know that ACM is also human & my workload is overflowing & still need to help them to finish their work... & management is asking me why am i not doing what i'm suppose to do...

do they know that they are the only group of executives that come into office ard 9am & leave the office on the dot... what more they wan to complain...

Feel like leaving everything behind & just go...

can i last for another 10 weeks??? abit doubtful....

going to breakdown any min....

looking back, i have surviving with the same group of executives for the past 2.5 yrs....

either they are good or i'm good at enduring/ignoring them... LOL

Back to work after 1 month of MC

Back to work few days ago, after 1 month of MC & Hospitalisation Leave...
My butt still pain after the fall...

Have been looking forward to come back to work, but after coming back just feel that i am not welcome back...
cos during my absent, they can do what they want or dont do also nobody will scold them...
list & list of work was given to them once i came back...
Don seems to be bother with their own work...
keep on talking about their own stuff...
remind them to get it done before Mgmt look into it...
end up still got an email why so many things not done...
they are not the 1 writing all the explanatio that why they don bother to get their job done...
remind them about their work, they can answer back that the course just ended...
the whole monring just talk, if wan to do all the work already complete...
keeps on telling pple that she needs to work till midnight & work on weekend...
if you stop going to smoke every 2 hrs (15-30 mins) & stop talking for 1-1.5hrs in the morning, i can be sure that you can finish ur work on time...

Haizz...